Page of St. Thomas


Fresh & rational perspectives on the most beautiful story ever told

Fresh & rational perspectives on the most beautiful story ever told
Fresh & rational perspectives on the most beautiful story ever told
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The Most Beautiful Story ever Told
On Free Will and Afterlife
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The Most Beautiful Story ever Told

Created: Sep 19, 2017
Modified: June 22, 2021
7th draft

As a philosopher and scientist, I am required to be 'skeptical.' So I find solace in St. Thomas' salvation despite his doubt.

While I'm technically a gnostic, there’s not many of us, so I've frequented meetings of the Society of Friends. In the 1990s, I shared a thought that maybe God actually had to work within the rules of His own creation, but two millennia ago, people didn't really understand the laws of science. For example, maybe Jesus knew artificial respiration, to bring Lazarus from the dead, and knew how to put himself in a coma when he was on the cross. Some Friends found my thoughts helpful in their faith. So I drafted this book. It's in the raunchy Baptist 'storytelling' style, because I've always enjoyed Baptist sermons the best; but in case you're worried about that, it doesn't have moral lectures at the end.

On Free Will and Afterlife

I could write an enormous amount on the debate whether free will and afterlife exists, but it suffices to say this, at least for me.

My actions could be predestined, and if there's an afterlife, I'll have to ask God about it after I die. Maybe I have no free will. Maybe I am only a machine which God designed to fulfill some other need of His Creation. But I don't mind! It's one hell of a Creation! But I do dream of meeting Christ in the afterlife, running forward and throwing my arms around Him, saying 'Thank you for an amazing life! How glad I am finally to know without doubt You exist!"

About being forgiven for my sins in life, I have no doubt, because these days I always act in faith that I will ask Him, even though I still doubt God exists at times. And I know God will forgive me, because as a philosopher and scientist, I have no choice but to be skeptical, whatever my faith.

In the bible, St. Thomas was also skeptical that Christ had really returned from the dead. He needed 'more proof.' Well, like St. Thomas, I need more proof to resolve my skepticism, until which time it would be inappropriate for me to make my own judgment of it. So I reserve the final decision as to whether there is an afterlife. I am not agnostic. I merely abstain from the choice.

After St. Thomas touched Christ's wounds and believed, Christ blessed those who need no more evidence like St. Thomas needed. Some have pointed out I am not blessed in this way. Well, I am very grateful for the other blessings I have been given, and need no more. For example, I was blessed to learn ancient Greek, so I can read the most beautiful words ever written in the original language.

If you wonder what church acknowledges myGnostic theological view, there was once a concept of 'purgatory' which has fallen out of fashion, whereby nonbelievers did not need to have perfect faith in order to reach heaven. Otherwise, there has been only one church so far, the Eastern Orthodox church. Although it is not part of their official canon, Monks from Mount Athos in Greece have not denied my beliefs. In total contrast, I was asked to start a new church. Well, my opinion remains that there's two many different churches already. Christians spend far too much time bickering about their differences in faith as it is. So I have not founded a 'Church of St. Thomas.' But out of love Jesus, I made this page.